Its December of a year that has been filled with travel and a year that went by at an incredible speed. But when I look back on it what stands out is not the beauty and memory of the places i saw but the power of intention and the beauty of grace. Change, positivity, forgiveness and constantly reminding myself of the now have been recurring thoughts and actions this year.
In the past 12 months I have (with intention) spent time connecting with some of my closest and most loved family and friends. An exercise that I embarked upon purely for the joy it would bring me. In the process I got in touch with so many parts of me and all the people I have been. In conversations with friends, sisters, mothers and strangers I have found answers to unarticulated questions. Journeys and homecomings have revealed to me things about myself and the surprising nature of who I am. I've lost some people I love but I have come to believe that we will all catch up slowly, taking different paths that will intersect again.
Life sometimes feel like a continuous exercise in learning how to love. To love with non attachment, to love with space and respect and to start with myself is an everyday, every moment endeavour. Very often I find myself forgetting it and start to look for it outside of me. In validation, acknowledgement, affirmation and attention, from parents, friends and sometimes even complete strangers. To accept what I see in a mirror, to own, love and humour the thoughts and places in my head. To love, nourish and care for my body. To trust and thus loosen the hold of fear. To replace a negative thought with a positive and not be fooled into thinking I need to form an opinion or even react to everything that happens around me.
To engage and create on an everyday basis without stressing on productivity. To lighten up, lower the intensity and to learn to let go of more. Its a busy year ahead, both within and without.
In the past 12 months I have (with intention) spent time connecting with some of my closest and most loved family and friends. An exercise that I embarked upon purely for the joy it would bring me. In the process I got in touch with so many parts of me and all the people I have been. In conversations with friends, sisters, mothers and strangers I have found answers to unarticulated questions. Journeys and homecomings have revealed to me things about myself and the surprising nature of who I am. I've lost some people I love but I have come to believe that we will all catch up slowly, taking different paths that will intersect again.
Life sometimes feel like a continuous exercise in learning how to love. To love with non attachment, to love with space and respect and to start with myself is an everyday, every moment endeavour. Very often I find myself forgetting it and start to look for it outside of me. In validation, acknowledgement, affirmation and attention, from parents, friends and sometimes even complete strangers. To accept what I see in a mirror, to own, love and humour the thoughts and places in my head. To love, nourish and care for my body. To trust and thus loosen the hold of fear. To replace a negative thought with a positive and not be fooled into thinking I need to form an opinion or even react to everything that happens around me.
To engage and create on an everyday basis without stressing on productivity. To lighten up, lower the intensity and to learn to let go of more. Its a busy year ahead, both within and without.
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